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[TrappedByANarcissist]

I’m “done”. Officially. I’ve left a horrible relationship if 20 years and the ex took everything including my child, my dogs, my home, the business, our vehicles, all of my possessions. I walked away with nothing. I’m trying to be a Mother to our almost-16-yr.old daughter but she wants nothing to do with me. I’m being threatened by the ex that he now wants child support on top of taking it all from me. He knows I earn just above minimum wage and I’m devastated financially, as well as mentally and it’s so, so hard just getting into work every day w/o an anxiety attack. I feel life is very cruel and maybe I’m not supposed to be in this world 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Oct7skye]

Please take a deep breath. I definitely understand where you are coming from. I’m in a similar situation. It will get better. When divorcing I had very little. My children were very small. I had no support whatsoever. Mentally I didn’t know how but I knew I had to keep pushing and could not allow my ex to feel he controlled me. I have dealt with so many obstacles alone from health issues to having extremely bad behavior issues from my children who ended up being taken because I couldn’t handle them in a proper manner. I felt lost because my children were no where around and this caused me to mentally break down. I had to pray and tell myself constantly I have to get it together for my children. I have to take care of myself and keep myself up in order to care for my children and move forward in life. I started attending therapy and also started talking to other people who had similar situations that might had another way of coping instead of my strategies that clearly ended me up losing my children. Everyday I work harder to become a better person and also try to encourage others that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I was once feeling like you but keep striving for better and holding your head high and you will start feeling better regardless of all the negative around you. I will also keep you in my prayers that your relationship with your daughter gets better as well

[TrappedByANarcissist in reply to Oct7skye]

Thank you! Your story sounds very similar to mine! I wish you well also 🙏🏻☮️🍀

[gerg]

At a time like this, the best thing to do is to take care of the things that you have control over.