Depression and Anxiety

[River1980]

I feel like Im losing myself. Just over a year ago, my friends picked on me bc I was never in a bad mood, always cheerful and happy. Always. I was in a car wreck, I now have a spinal cord injury, and I dont know whats happening to me. The grief I feel inside, the sadness. Its overwhelming to say the least. Im seeing a counsleor, but, I dont like my life, I dont like myself. Nothing is recognizable, nothing. Its tearing me apart, it has made me pull back from every person that I know. How did I go from a happy go lucky woman, full of life, full of things to offer, a nurse who loved her job, a wife who loved her life...to this person who cant stand to look at her own self in the mirror. I just...dont know.

[aaronm]

I'm in a similar situation. I was the most positive person on a very low dose of medication and very easily controlled anxiety and depression. Then I had a sudden brain bleed in 02/2018 for reasons still unknown. I haven't been the same since. I struggle day to day. I'm about to max out my meds lost all my friends and have an immense amount of stress. Getting through the day is a struggle by itself.

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River, your sadness weighs on my heart, too. It makes complete sense that you feel like you are losing yourself because your life is so different now. You probably need to grieve "what might have been" before you can throw yourself fully into "what will be" with any positivity. I think it will come, though. Grieving will become smaller, then Living will grow.