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[JayFaye]

I’ve been having a super rough time lately. I was diagnosed with depression about 6 to 7 years ago. Then in the past going on 2 years I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and bipolar disorder. I have a really hard time opening up, and talking to people about how my head feels simply because it just feels like no one understands what’s going on with me, and what’s going on in my head. I just had to quit my job working with a company doing the home health care with mentally handicapped people. I got to the point I couldn’t take it anymore from being constantly abused by the person I worked with. So I’m on the search for a different job, and honestly I just feel lost from everything. I feel like I’ve done nothing but let myself down, and everyone around me. I can’t wait to get back to working, and finding a new job. I can’t wait to move forward. I just can’t wait to feel okay again. 😔

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One step at a time is what they say to do. You took the first step to bettering your life but leaving the abusive situation. That's a big first step. You did good.

I know that's not much help, but as of s suffering from depression myself it's difficult to suggest better things. All I can say is that you did good. A first step so tremendous to better yourself. I believe you'll keep going forward and make a better life for yourself. <3

[6ixtyon1]

I hope that you know that a lot of that bad feeling was the fault of the person who mistreated you...I think it's wonderful that you went to the trouble to help other patients with their daily lives...I don't think it's ok that whomever you worked with treated you in that manner. Everyone has bad days and makes mistakes...as long as they were minor, and no one got hurt, that's only human. I notice a bad tendency for co-workers--and, sometimes even the people you are trying to train--to try and "climb" on top of someone's work ethic and make them feel small...not fair. You don't have to take that & I think it might have triggered how you feel. If your resume is up to date, I would be looking, at least casually, for another fresh start--YOU DESERVE IT!

[backtonormal]

Wow! I am in awe of the work you did/do to help others who can not help themselves. That is a tough job indeed but you should be so proud of the work you've done. You just need to find a better situation and as BlackBludWulf said, you've taken that first big step in doing so. You amaze me I guess because I can't ever seeing myself helping others in that capacity. Although I took care of both of my elderly parents before they passed and I have an older sister who is living with me that I'm taking care of because she has all sorts of medical issues. I know what it's like just to care of family members I can't imagine doing this as a full time job! I'm sure you have so many wonderful qualities about you and you just need to keep focusing on those. Also, if you've been struggling for so long yet have made it this far that's a huge accomplishment! You sound excited about moving forward and getting back to "okay" again. I know you'll get there!