hey support,
new to this site here and have no clue how i found this site but THANK GOD i did.
Sensitive.. Afraid of saying the wrong things. The thought of losing friends and family. Not being good enough for my family. Dad's "TIGER parenting". Letting my circle down. Being alone. Lethargic. Trusting the wrong people.
I cannot confide in my inner circle because.. well, I was raised to think that I was the bigger sister & that comes w/ loads of responsibility. I mainly focused on helping my parents and not myself (up until this day) and it really disabled me to present time. Dad was always at work. Mom has no clue of the American language NOR does she know how to drive.
I FINALLY officially moved out at the age of 25 (always moved back and fourth b/c they asked me to help with $$$) but they are devastated about it. I feel like I made a horrible choice by choosing myself, my future, and my long term goals.
I have no one to talk to about it because my FAMILY is all I have and this touchy subject is best not discussed around them because I know what their answer will be. I cannot speak about this to my 2 younger siblings because they were born at a different age, era, and time + they are still teenagers about to grad HS.
Usually, my mom is my go-to bestfriend to talk to about anything & everything but after moving away, it's been nothing but constant complaints and negativity that each time I hang up it's never a positive feeling.
Looking for group therapy, hopefully this will set my mind straight and discussing it will help me. Rather then locking myself up in my room for days, it's time I go out and venture my existence! As hard as it sounds, always take it one day at a time
"Like a lotus, i will blossom"
Slipping slowly back 
wanting to give up but not sure how 
New here, not sure how it works. 
My loneliness is killing me slowly
Not sure if this is the place
