I feel hopeless, lost, confused, alone, and numb. I'm at an all-time low. Maybe there is a future for me, but I can't see it right now. I feel like people won't understand some of the crazy thoughts that plague me, as I have very unusual ruminations, and it's led me to the brink of despair. I honestly just want to cuddle an animal and rock myself right now. Where do you think I should go from here?
Depression: I feel hopeless, lost... - Anxiety and Depre...
Depression
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It really sounds as if you feel rather depressed. Have you spoken with a counselor? Perhaps the counselors at Focus on the Family can help you to find an easier path. They are confidential an can be reached at 855-382-5433. If you are reaching a point where you feel as if you can't go on please call the suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255.
When the tunnel is very dark. We can not see a glimmer of light. We keep searching for the light. It may seem that there is no way to get out of the tunnel. It is very dark and lonely. We put on our armor and fight for life. The light is there. Please keep searching. I have recently recovered from 40 years of Anorexia. I checked myself into out-patient treatment six years ago. I was dying. Since I was a small child I had been in that tunnel and no hope for the light. I became mentally ill at 14. I am now 56 and have found the light. I lived in the darkness all those years. Now, I am free. I found that light that I had searched for all those years. I will not return to the tunnel again. I am proud to be living now and not just existing. I am like the eagle who is free. I soar in the wind and free. I want you to try and be strong. Do not let depression win. Stand strong and courageous. The depression will not win. Believe in you. We all here love and care for you. Please be safe.