FIGHTING A BATTLE AGAINST MY OWNSELF

[Cocoon3]

It’s strange how the mind works !!! Most of my day consisted of a lot of good things, as well as, spiritual moments and then BAM!!!! Suddenly the depression & darkness sneaks in on you - no trigger, no warning, no known reason ( iterally becoming your own shadow, that you can not get rid of 😢) ..... I have severe skin ulcers (stress related) & before you know it... I’m picking & tearing them apart -& Yes it hurts (they are craters, very deep), but it doesn’t matter to me & yes it’s ugly... but ••• I think I have came to the conclusion that I have the disease of sore picking which is very similar they say to cutting.,,..when I pick my sores, I forget about all my worries — I don’t know what’s wrong with me

[pink83737]

Have you looked into mindfulness? You should get the headspace app it helps me so much

[TriggerPoint]

May Healing Come To You.... [ we all need it ].... You Do The "Good Things" You Did Today Along With The "Spiritual" TWICE AS HARD [ if an attack comes back ? big deal ? how many times has this happened already ? ].... Remember. NOTHING & NOBODY Has The Power Over "YOUR" Will To Choose...."Fear" IS Our [ everyone's ] Worst Enemy... Fear Will Come.... But It's How YOU Decide To Handle It When It Attacks... [ YOU have the power to choose. YOUR Will Is Yours ]

Prayers For Ya My Friend~*

[ just think. isn't it odd how your "enemy" backs off when you start picking at your wounds ? why ? it succeeded in it's attack. not only did it rob your good day, but now it has you harming yourself. remember it "can not" change "your will to choose". ]

PS. Your Attitude Of So ? Big Deal ? & So What ? Weakens The Attacks...

Once There Was A Farmer Who Decided To Bury His Old Mule Wile The Mule Was Still Alive. He Was Cruel To The Old Mule Anyway. He Worked Hard To Dig That Deep Deep Hole. He Whipped The Mule Cruelly Until It Fell Into The Hole Hoping The Fall Would Kill The Mule, Then Started Shoveling The Dirt Back Into That Large Hole. However. The Mule Made The Choice To Get Up & Not Lie There In The Hole. As The Farmer Shoveled The Dirt On It's Back, The Mule Shook The Dirt Off & Tamped It Down. By The Time The Farmer Turned To Pack Down What He Thought Was The Mule's Grave ? Guess Who Was Starring Him In The Face ? That's Right ! That Old Mule. The Farmer Was Amazed ! He Was Sweating, Wiped His Head, & Let The Mule Go As The Mule Walked Away. Never Bothering The Old Mule Again... That Old Mule Lived Another 10 Years In Peace & Passed As It Willed Naturally... Are We Not Smarter Than The Mule ?... [ pause and calmly thing about that ]

[Cocoon3 in reply to TriggerPoint]

Thank You

Thank You

[Cocoon3 in reply to TriggerPoint]

I have referred to Your reply ...sooo many times !!!! YOU TRULY GUIDED WITH THE EXACT WORDS THAT CAUGHT MY ATTENTION !! 💕Thank You for CARING !!!!!! ❤️

[TriggerPoint in reply to Cocoon3]

I Do Care My Friend & Thank You.... You Are One Of A Kind. You Are Special...Don't Let Anything Or/ Anybody Tell You Any Different....

[pink318]

I’m very sorry to hear this. Are you seeing a doctor regarding your depression? I hope you can get the help you need.

You mentioned that your skin ulcers are hurting, I hope you can check with your doctor and you will get better from these deep wounds. Sorry that you are having a tough time, I pray that you will stay strong no matter how painful your situation is . Take care of yourself and please seek professional help. God bless, please keep us posted.

[Cocoon3 in reply to pink318]

Thank you for taking time out to share advice with me... a complete Stranger that unfortunately shares the same invisible illnesses- as you