The struggle that I wish you would read . Hopefully , you could help me as well as me help you.

[Endlessdepression]

Why do people not understand. I'm being judged by people that can go to bed without a struggle and wake up just as easy. They can go to work everyday without a problem and have a home , cars and the ability to do many things without a struggle. Most of them have the answers for me , but yet so far off! How do you explain it to them. If it was a physical thing , it's understood immediately. How can't they see it? I was recently in adult day treatment where I met a person who had a stroke. He had slight problems walking , some problems seeing the things next to him and a little speech empediment. While is depression from his physical problems are validated, I didn't understand and I did. I thought to myself " holy crap ! There is so many things this person could do" for goddess sakes, if I had control of my mind like that, I could do great things consistently. I held my tongue knowning that listening was better than talking. Depression is agonizing either way. I could only guess that he was looking at me the same way. What I mean by that is that he looked at me, only an assumption , but after hearing him talk about his physical thing was bringing him down and he had never had a depression like this. So, I've been battling with social security over this crap. I've been completely destroyed by this. Social security decided that I could do a job. I'm still waiting to find that job,they said existed. With the restrictions that they say I can work under, a Walmart greeter is out of the question because the restrictions I have on me ,say I can't. So the guy who had the stroke said to me " I suppose I should file for disability." This time I just acknowledge him then walked away in a polite manner. I bet he gets it first try. I have been completely destroyed by this. Where I am so tired of this battle, I don't care anymore. I now think I know what old people feel when they say when they are tired. How do I explain? I'm not lazy, I'm not a piece of shit, what words do hold some value, I'm not a bad person, I'm a good loving father and so many thing that I don't want to list anymore. I have these debilitating problems in my life , and it definitely hasn't been profitable. I have lived in extreme poverty, which is down to zero income, because social security decided to take me off disability, smh. And the lack of money in my life, holy crap! Do people scatter and put you down relentlessly. Well, I could go on all day ! I just wish to hear some responses and made turn it into a helpful discussion.

[Veelala]

You are not alone everybody seems to be normal go on with their day today life except for me.. as for disability They deny you a lot you just have to keep trying you will get it dnt give up. Have a good day

[hypercat54]

Hi many people do understand but only those who suffer with it themselves or have close family members/friends who do. To be honest I wouldn't tell people generally as it only makes you feel worse when they think they have all the answers. Only tell true friends or family who get it. We all do on here.

t's easy to think the rest of the world don't suffer but people are good at hiding their struggles and putting a 'face' on, so I reckon some of those you see could be like this. x

[pink318]

Hi- Sorry to hear this. I hope you can get the help you need. No matter how hard life is, I pray that you will not lose hope and things will get better for you.

Please keep us posted. We are here for you. God bless.