Introducing myself

I’m experiencing depression and anxiety. My father passed on in September. I got the flu at the beginning of the month and then wham got hit with tough depression. I feel alone in how I feel and so am seeking comfort from hearing what has worked for others especially for their fears and ability to ride the wave and know it will get better.

[kenster1]

hi sorry to hear of your loss depression seems to follow a death soon after it has done with all mine.my dad died on easter sunday I had a breakdown in june still struggling as yet still no support.i am waiting to go to bereavement counselling maybe you should give them a call in your local area.what works for me is regular visits t the graveyard it makes me feel at peace.plus talking of loved ones regular helps me.take care.

[dore13]

strange thing about death, we all react differently. When my father died, I thought if I get through the wake, if I get through the funeral, I'll be okay. But that wasn't the case, I was numb, and I felt nothing, I shut down. Then out of the blue, I started cracking, having flashbacks of the last 5 weeks of his life. Seeing every moment in slow motion, and reliving terrible agonizing situation over and over again. Every moment until his last breath. He died 5 years ago, and I still have moments, or flashbacks, of those last 5 weeks. ... from the moment he got the diagnosis, until he took his last breath. There are more triggers than I can list. From seeing the last movie we watch together, to the dark purple towels I hid under his bed in case he bled out when he died. I am going to an intensive PTSD program at a psychiatric hospital, in hopes of learning coping mechanisms so I may recover and move on. I wish I could post a positive message saying time heals all wounds, and you'll be fine....but the truth is, everyone is different, everyone heals differently. I need help, maybe you will too. I should not have waited this long, but I guess we accept things in our own time. I wish you luck, and hope you heal from your loss.

[Hidden in reply to dore13]

Thank you for sharing. I’m proud of you for getting the support you need in your healing process. I’m listening to audible books by Thich Nhat Hanh. He has a gentle healing voice and shares his Buddhist philosophies about life and suffering and happiness and love. He brings me comfort. Your healing is so important and you are taking some very brave steps. Sending you extra light during this time.

[Tjgg]

Hi there !

I'm so sorry for your loss. My Dad also passed away in June. Since then I experienced panic attacks, anxiety and depression.

YOU WILL BE OK it is completely normal to grieve, specifically if its someone very special to you like your dad. Grieving has 5 stages and you dont go in order through them. It's more like a rollercoaster, some days you are up (happy) and some days you are sad ( depressed) Everybody has their unique time to grieve, some may take 2 months, some make take years or who knows. Give yourself time to cry, to think about all of the good times you shared. You will never forget, but it will get easier( a little)