Cognitive impairment and depression

[Caleb524]

Depression and anxiety hit me hard about a year and a half ago; it wasn’t an overwhelming sense of sadness or hopelessness but rather cognitive and physical decline. At its onset I was convinced something was wrong with me, and I attributed this to my vegan diet, thinking the source was nutritional. It took me a while to grasp that this was depression and anxiety because of my conviction that this was a strictly nutritional issue. Trying to explain to friends and family what was happening to me was essentially impossible: no one could relate to this experience of literally losing mental capability. Currently, I’m in my second semester of college and essentially doing my best to survive. I’m someone who has always been curious, wondrous, and craving intellectual or creative stimulation, but now I feel so blank minded. I feel unsubstantial, like I’ve lost my intelligence, my charisma, my creativity... i don’t usually take pleasure in conversation anymore, it’s often dreadful or seemingly pointless because I struggle to contribute. There are times when I’m not so worried about my mental faculties and I may be able to focus a little better, but things always seem to regress. I honestly just want my regular mind back, and I don’t know if that’s achievable independent of fighting depression or if they’re innately intertwined. Does anyone have advice or suggestion? Do you guys think medication or meditation would help? Both? I am really just looking for reassurance that my mind isn’t lost and that I’ll be able to be creative again... thanks

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i finally found u. I mean i am a similar case as u are. I am still trying my best to find the best solution,and never improved till now,but i think u need to do physical workout, maintain a regular sleep hygiene,take good diet along with ADs and see if it gets better.There are certain antidepressants like 'trintellix' that help with these issues. Talk to ur doc about this med.