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[Bleeink]

To whom it may concern,

Hello again, after a few days of getting myself off the city and tried everyone's suggestion to how to cope up with what I'm feeling last week I finally came back to my senses, atleast for now, but the trauma will always be with me. Now I'm about to tell you guys what actually happened, to those who didn't know, because I feel like it. Monday, February 4 my friends and I went to a bar for a chillin' drink since we have lots to celebrate, we had fun, that night I'm cuddling with my boyfriend and we went home by 8:00pm. We're college students by the way, now another day comes 5th day of february, its Chinese New Year plus my boyfriend's bday, a happy morning chat with him turned out to be a disastrous day for us. Someone posted our picture (my bf and me) cuddling and evryone online thought it was a sex video, it spreads like a virus, we didn't know who took the picture nor the admin of the page who took the picture. I became anxious starting that day, so stunned enough that I've been sitting for 5 hours in front of my laptop don't know what to do. I was so scared to go to school the other day, but I have to. every night was a sleepless night, circles under my eyes are so dark and big, everyone at school was staring at me, I don't know what to do, I was humiliated, I couldn't bare to eat one spoon of rice even if my friends would treat me my favorite snacks and meals. I was so scared, so alone and my world's too dark, and I was feeling, as if I'm falling into a deep deep hole. Thank goodness I found this site and I thought of telling and letting all my struggles here would be helpful for me. And it turns out really helpful. After my mom saw the post, she immediately took action, she and my boyfriend did something that makes the admin delete the post and it worked, from the city I went home on thursday and praying that no one in the province would know that post. Thank goodness, the post was deleted on friday, february 8, and that day was our day (2 months in a relationship). I cannot imagine my face that day as well as my feelings. I was crying. I don't know where to start. I'm so relieved and finally after that I've been sleeping well and got my appetite back, but then now February 11, monday I got back in the city and I thought I was okay, I took a day with my bf cuz we didn't saw each other from wednesday last week. Now I home, at our dorm, still can't forget what happened and now I'm so scared. But I'm trying not too. But to those who replied and chatted, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

however, I still wanna know who did that to us.

-Bleeink

[Mary-intussuception]

Remember the breathing exercises and try to think positive thoughts when the fear tries to creep back in.

Remember that you are Precious - and have done nothing wrong and can overcome feafulness.

Remember to eat well, drink water and try not to go without sleep (call to mind pleasant thoughts and happy memories - things you are thankful for).

Keep posting when you need to.x

[Bleeink in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Thank you so much. T_T

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Bleeink]

You're welcome

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