Managers don't trust me!!???

[Cookie101]

So I finally managed to feel reasonably stable over the weekend as I came to a realisation that helped me to deal with something that has been happening at work, came into work on Monday feeling much happier, sat down with a manager who told me that they can't trust anything I say regarding my own depression and they want me to talk to Occupational Health who can recommend how they can support me. Yesterday, they had to do my return to work following my motorbike accident last week and they once again made decisions about my mental state. I even reminded them that they had told me they didn't understand how best to help me which is why they were waiting on OH and all I got was "it's a management decision as we're worried about you being on your own'. Sure enough, a few minutes after that I had an anxiety attack. Worst I've had so far. I woke up this morning so anxious about going to work that I'm having to take get another day off work. I had no issues until they intervened, I was able to manage my anxiety using simple techniques and mindfulness. Now I feel like someone is poking the dog and he keeps biting me in the arse! Has anyone else had to deal with 'help' like this? I'm wondering if I should head to the Doc again and have my meds adjusted but it's just the management involvement which is causing all the issues. Trouble is, they've already said they aren't going to listen to me. I can't seem to deal with any of this as it's being handled by other, less experienced people who think they know how to help me!

[pam4him]

So sorry for the difficult situation. It can be stressful when others are in charge of how we should deal with our anxiety. It might be helpful to visit with the Doc about the meds and the current situation, as a temporary adjustment may help. It is kind of sad that management does not seem to listen to you about the situation, but I also get that they are protecting the company. But that can definitely cause an increase in anxiety. Hopefully a peaceful resolution can be found soon. Prayers for peace.

[Cookie101 in reply to pam4him]

Hi Pam4him, thank you for the reply, I did indeed go back to the doctor who has increased my meds. We discussed taking time off until I see OH but that's never the best idea, particularly as I love my job and don't have an issue with the work itself. What I did in the end was write a firm letter to my managers advising what consequences had been caused by this latest decision, and that I wouldn't discuss it, or accept any decisions they made regarding it until the conversation with OH had taken place. I had one manager who decided to ignore the letter which got me very anxious, but she seems to have backed down now and they have pushed through the referral paperwork so I'll speak to OH on Monday 4th! Hopefully I can get through this week without further incidents.