I am having a tough day. I am having a hard time putting my thoughts together for this. I feel like my mind is overwhelming me. When I tried to mediate and calm myself with mindfulness, I found myself thinking about how calm I could be if I just stopped. There would be no trying to catch my breath, no pit in my stomach or heart throbbing, and best of all thoughts would no longer race through my mind.
I took the headphones off and took a cold shower trying to numb the thoughts away.
What is going on. I feel...idk beaten