Don,t Give Up

[gerrerd]

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[Celtic27]

Can I ask why your posts are so short or not at all

[gerrerd in reply to Celtic27]

I just put the message out there for people. too much information just confuse,s people.

[Celtic27 in reply to gerrerd]

Cool was wondering if things were OK all the best for 2019

[art62grammie]

Great encouragement. Thanks. I agree with you. I am 56 and have been Anorexic since 14. You may have seen my first post when I joined the group 2 months ago. I now live with all those repressed memories that only came out 2 yrs. ago. I healed my mind. The memories are horrible. I would have never recovered from Anorexia if I had not begun at the basement and worked to the upstairs. Why did I become mentally ill at 14? The answers were locked up in my memory for all those years. Two years ago my memories returned. Like my therapist told me. Remember then releases each painful memory. I do just that. I can not fix the past. I live each day with the joy of life. I have almost died so many times during my Anorexic days. I guess that is why I feel lucky for each day. I know the horrible depression that mental illness has. I know that lonely life. I will be strong and courageous. I am a soldier and go to war every day to never return down that old path. I am brave. Those memories my doctor tells me are why lots of people commit suicide. Suicide will not happen to me. The ones that we leave behind are the people who suffer. It is by far the worst of all deaths. The childhood rapes by my father are why I became ill. The precious mother married to dad for 40 years. She is now 82 and well. Dad died at 66. I had 3 siblings and we all were raped by him. My mother also suffered from this evil monster. I have seen loaded pistols and butcher knives held to my wonderful mom. I will not let any memory destroy me again. Why should I allow that man to destroy me anymore? I am like broken glass. I am putting my life back together piece by piece. NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME NOW. We stand up to depression and tell it no more. There is no room for you in my life. I am strong and that depression is nothing. It becomes weak and frail. Let it know that you mean business. Tell it to take a long hike and to never return. You can do it. BELIEVE IN YOU! I have faith in you.

[gerrerd in reply to art62grammie]

I was also sexual,y abused I only told people about it this year, It brought about a tremendous release. Now I pity this man he was a doctor who is now dead. I look on life now, that the past and mistakes are lessons, I leave it behind me because Im not going that way Im going into a better future.