Nothing matters

[cinnamonapple89]

Currently stuck in the “nothing matters” phase. I see everything so clearly that I’m able to see why things don’t matter. It’s really causing me to act differently, and causing me to not be able to form an real connections with anyone. It makes me very insecure and more shy with he. It makes me very unsure of myself and everything I’m doing. I weekly every thought. I see the flip side of everything. I am just weighed down by this.

[Hidden]

I get stuck there too. It messes with your head, doesn't it. I don't have an answer, just a relation to your story. We've got this.

[cinnamonapple89 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for this, to know others are experiencing these same weird thoughts really does secure you in some way

[Hidden in reply to cinnamonapple89]

Glad to help

[MariaLove123]

Awww cinnamonapple I love you! It’s really hard to get out of the lowest points. You gotta make one step...one promise to yourself that you’ll do everyday. Someone helped me do it and keep sticking to it. I chose showering and putting on fun makeup. So far I’m sticking to it and eventually it’ll just be a routine and I can take my next step. Always here for you X

[cinnamonapple89 in reply to MariaLove123]

❤️ thank you so much

[Tikirob]

I am like this right now and thumbing away on the smartphone just trying to find something new and stimulating. I am aware of my cage and that really makes me just want to let time go by and do it’s thing. I really would love a good time. Just a person to call me up and say hey I know this cool place and they have this great cafe and blah blah blah, hey I’ll come over and pick you up. I am at the point I may just join one of those platonic date sights, hoping to get some retired person to show me their favorite donut shop and tell me about their life. I get the same feeling from walking around skyscrapers as I used to get from watching cable television, this who cares - click, who cares- click, motion of thought. The thought of Aliens coming to earth does not scare me. I’d go open some Doritos with a smile on face like, well finally! Not trivialize how you are feeling, it sucks to feel this way and I am sorry you are going through this. I believe this happens to smart people. If you are able to kind of take a Zen perspective on things then you are kind of left with nothing, which is not too stimulating! May I ask when you think about the flip side what is the negative thought that comes to mind?

[cinnamonapple89 in reply to Tikirob]

Thank you for this reply! Yea I’m always on tumblr or something just looking for something to excite me. Maybe something cool I want to buy or SOMETHING. I just don’t care about anything. My appearance my attitude my isolation. I totally feel you about just letting time do it’s thing and stop fighting it. Because sometimes I’m like - what if this is how I’m supposed to be? 😩