Silence...

[Wild_N]

Silenced can mean a lot of things, ignore, let it pass, in shalla, reflection, strategy and a quite more I can think of.

What I've realized in my silence and solitude I'm expecting the silence to speak for me as I cry in pain silently. What's the point coz this silence is killing me physically, spirituality and emotionally whats having a voice when you're internally silent. Did those that needed to know know? Was truth told in silence? Was expression expressed in silence? I guess one day I'll have no say like I don't now but I do hope my thoughts and writings in silence will be heard...

East, west, south and north I may go I know one day it'll make a difference regardless of the direction... Let me grow taller and firmer in the reality I'm in right now let me not burst but stay humble through and through.

I'm depressed and I feel it more and more as I have to face everyday with no purpose. I can't explain but I know it's slowly defeating me. I fight suicidal thoughts everyday I can't sleep without sleeping pills, I want to tell you how I feel but it's like I'm burdening you. I don't know how I ended up with this condition but I have it. I know I'm not gonna give in or give up but the journey will be easier with support. I may not say much but currently I'm broken n dry. I miss daddio coz he could hear my weeping. Now I weep day in and out yet I'm in the wild can't be found. I hate this I hate me state but I have to live... Just know day in n out in this situation it's a battle field, a fight for strength and will remain hopeful especially for my kids.

When things are looking good there's just that hammer factor pressing u down... I shall carry my cross.

[IChoose]

Have you considered becoming a blogger and writing poetry, or maybe even song lyrics? You have a cool way of expressing what's going on inside.

[Wild_N in reply to IChoose]

Thank you. I do blog here and there. One of my life missions is to write a book. When things happen or episodes happens I know is another chapter in my book.