In silence I only find anxiety and depression, and that’s why I decided to join this community. I’ve always been skeptical about sharing my feelings online but I needed a change. I feel blessed by having love, health and a job to do well to others. I feel unblessed by my thoughts. I study over 15 years to finish a doctorate degree that I haven’t been able to practice. Anxiety has gotten in the way of taking my boards. Every day, in my dreams,or when there’s silence, I see the struggles of my pass, the sacrifices made for the dream of a better future and I feel trapped, left behind and hopeless. During the day I dreamed of the change I could make in other people’s lives and their healths if I was able to confront this paralysis and at night I relive the struggles of my past. I have better words for others than for myself. I hope I can finally find words and the strength to move forward without feeling that I am loosing my breath.