Fighting for my existence

I don't think im one of those people who were suppose to have a long life.. i think im one of those souls who comes for a quick visit but weren't meant to have a future, a degree, kids, and high school reunion. Im okay with that. When i got home a few days ago, with new stiches and a mother who's hands were shaking when she touched my face, i realized im one of the worse daughters who ever existed. Thank you for the candles i will forever be grateful and feeling the love from you guys is better than the happiness i get from eating chocolate (Okay that was a lie, i love chocolate too much but its super close to it lol) i love you guys 🌻💜💜💜💜

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You have to remember how special you are, there's only one you! No you are no way a bad daughter, it's this ugly disease. I'm praying for you! Fight the good fight for you, I'll help you with the fight, okay? Dump trucks of love & hugs!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

It means a lot hun thank you so much

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

If I can help you, please let me know, okay? I know the dark times & they stink like a dump. I love you! Peace, joy, light & dump trucks of hugs!

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Yes! We are all fighters here; keep fighting , no setting down your swords. Wink 😉

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Right on sister friend, we're here for you Danielle! Love, peace, light, joy & hugs!

[Agora1]

Dearest Danielle, Today the sun shines a little brighter. It's so nice to see the user picture of you smiling. I held onto that

hope as so many others did. I'm glad you're back. Take it slow, take it easy. We are here for you. Love Agora xx

[Miss-P74]

Hey Beautiful No more stitches please. We need you in one piece! Lots of love ❤️⭐️🤗

[LovelySnow]

So happy you are here. I'm sad that you had to go through more pain. But thank goodness you are here.

I used to think that, too - that I wasn't meant for a long life.

Sending you love.

[Hidden]

So glad you’re ok

[melbrown]

Danielle... I wish you could understand how untrue all that is... you are meant for so much. You are so special & loved... I can't even think straight right now.... Danielle, you aren't this depression... those thoughts aren't correct. Your mom loves you, you are her precious daughter ... I love you.

[faulhallen]

I don’t know you very well but I’m sure that you’re wrong about most of what you have said. Life is hard and I can only speculate as to what pain you have endured to be at the point where you are but I believe that you are here because you want to get better and if you continue trying to improve your life even in small ways that you will eventually get to where you want to be.

I wish you all the best and you can always talk to me as well as anyone you know better if you need to. I am so relieved and happy to read that you are ok. I wish you the best always. 🙂

[OT16]

I’m so very grateful that you are here Danielle ! I used to say the same thing to my caregiver, my best friend- my dad. At 19, I stopped celebrating my birthday because I firmly believed that I wouldn’t live to see 25. I’ve felt the exact same way & I still do sometimes, but I also realize that it’s the nature of the illness- not US. We are unfortunately subjected to a great deal of grief & pain due to it’s tight grasp on our lives. I’m now 48 (49 in 2 months) & my dad’s gone, I’m still not too excited about birthdays, but I know that because of the the love he showed me, his just being there, his actions when I wasn’t at my best, & his never ending support- despite my illness, I walk through this life knowing that I am genuinely grateful that I had that love. You’ll never again know a love/bond like the one you have with your mom. She’ll forgive you- you just have to work hard to forgive yourself. We all love you here. & although I have not been here long, & don’t know you as well as others here, I must say I cannot wait to see your posts !!!!!!! You brighten my every day 🌻 💜 ! We’re all rooting for you, & praying mightily for your victory. I’m so glad that you came back to us. Please take good care of yourself & know that you are authentically loved; just the way you are. Please try to treat yourself with the same loving kindness we would. xx 💜

[Michael8072]

Hugs danielle! So happy to hear from you!! Keep fighting!

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Hugs and good wishes to you

Xx 🌺🌹🌺🌹🌺🌹🌺🌹🌺🌹💕💕💕

[hypercat54]

Danielle my dear stop being so dramatic! You are not fated to be like this at all and it's only your mind being over active. I am sure you are very far from being the worst daughter in the world and from what you have said your mother loves you very much. Why do you think her hands were shaking so much? She was upset that's why. Wouldn't you be if your daughter had done this? Work with her and let her help you and stop seeing yourself in some romantic light.

I have been blunt with you but I have also been there and done that. Instead of worrying about the future just concentrate on the here and now and just do the best you can to get yourself feeling a bit better. x

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I agree, no mother should go through this she's probably scared

[comb]

Take one day, minute, second at a time. Focus on this current moment and know that these emotions will subside. They can come back again, but they'll subside once again too. That's why we must only think of right now, especially when things feel like too much.

[Hidden]

Your existence is so important on this earth. I'm so glad that you're okay and doing well. Please keep checking in with us. <3

[Orangeblossom85]

<3

[Hidden]

You left me with no words to say and that is rare, tears rolling down my face. I hope, because the prayers have been heard. I hope you know you are a light that can’t be hid. Glad to read your post.

[Ann10]

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