hypnagogic hallucinations Please help

[HallowsEve7]

Hi, i'm having a hard time with my mental health and am in need of some reassurance if possible. I have recently been diagnosed with OCD and possible psychosis, I also suffer from BPD and debilliating anxiety and paranioa. For the past year or so I have had an issue with 'cheating ocd' believing I have cheated, I believe I either become someone else in my sleep and message others or I am somehow awake and am able to message others without actually knowing. It's strange, cheating is something I am totally against and would never ever do to my partner, I love him more than anything but I think my abandonment issues mixed with my intrusive thoughts are trying to destroy that as it gives me the hideous fear that I am going to lose him. Recently I have also been struggling with my dreams, not knowing whether or not they're reality or some very lucid dream, the most recent dream I had was very scary to me, I remember having blurry vision, as if i was half awake, I was in the exact same place i fell asleep, on the same side, same exact room and I could feel my partner next to me, I remember looking at my hand and seeing my phone in it with messages from a male, I have been terrified ever since, it felt so real, I recently have learned about hypnagogic hallucinations, an hallucinations either from your waking state or falling asleep state, I have had similar dreams, where i'm in my bed as if i've just woken up and I remember pulling a blue piece of soft plastic from inside me, i could feel it, i held it i remember it clearly, in the morning i had remembered that and as I looked around there was no blue plastic, during this time I had led myself to believe that people would rape me whilst i was asleep, so i believe the blue plastic was resembling a condom, do you think my most recent incident was an hallucination? or do you think it actually happened? I am so sorry if you find this strange, I just don't really have that many people to talk to. I have been suffering with the messaging fear for nearly a year now, it often makes me very suicidal and makes me feel lost, is it possible for someone to actually 'become' awake and be able to actually unlock a phone, find someone to message, actually have a conversation with someone then delete all the evidence before i wake up, could i become someone else in my sleep? I have a 20 minute long ritual every night so my phone is as secure as possible, but even then that isn't enough. everyday I feel this awful guilt, it's become my reality no, I am no longer able to reason with myself, it's what my life now is and I can't get past these thoughts, really would appreciate some genuine help, it would really make my day as I can no longer cope with this. I am soon going to be on sertraline, which is a anti-ocd, anti-anxiety and anti-depressant, i may also be put onto anti-psychotics, so i am trying to be hopeful about everything, really would be the happiest person if you could help

[Lakewolf]

Because I’m narcoleptic, I get hypnagogic hallucinations all the time.

I would see a sleep specialist. It sounds like a variation on sleepwalking.

Are you on anything for your anxiety? REM disorders do not fall under the category of psychosis, though intrusive thoughts do. I become psychotic when I feel physically threatened. My diagnosis is “anxiety with psychotic features”, which probably stems from my PTSD (& being slipped LSD without my knowledge during my junior midterms,)

[Lakewolf]

I’m here if you need to talk. If you don’t feel comfortable talking about certain things in “public”, you can always PM me, ok?

I’m a 60 yr old woman, btw.