Sorry. Just need to get it out.

Why are you on my mind?

Why are you my 3:00 AM thoughts?

Why is it that, no matter what I’m doing,

— you’re still on my mind?

Why does the thought

of you with someone else pain me?

When I’m not even yours?

How come that you cross my mind when

I don’t want to think about you?

Why do I like the thought of you and I?

Why does the thought

of you and I

make me feel happy still?

Why do I feel like this?

Why do I think like this?

Why does it feel like,

I’m not even close to being,

over you yet?

Why can’t I seem to stop?

Stop thinking about you?

It’s driving me crazy.

Why have you been on my mind for this long?

It’s not healthy for me, now is it?

I don’t know what to do about it.

[xxsashulyaxx]

I'm on the same boat

[Hidden in reply to xxsashulyaxx]

Glad to know I’m not alone.

[xxsashulyaxx in reply to Hidden]

What happened if you dont mind me asking

[Hidden in reply to xxsashulyaxx]

Let’s just say, that— that person broke up with me. And yet here I am, still thinking about them.

[xxsashulyaxx in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry to hear that

If you want to talk I'm here for you

[Hidden in reply to xxsashulyaxx]

It’s alright.

Thank you. I appreciate it.

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

it's one of the absolute worst time's in our lives to go through.... next to experiencing death and divorce .. and I'm very sorry your in so much pain..

and yeah.... your gonna be hurting for a while....

I found a group who were dealing with grief and loss and learning to let go...it helped... but the only thing that makes it better is time. Just be honest with yourself about your relationship in the end.... were you really getting what you thought you were out of the relationship... was this person really there for you.... or are you reliving a fantasy of what you thought the relationship was.... we can often do that to try and hold onto the relationship emotionally.... but that door is closed....and the only one open is in front of you.... and as hard as this is.... we can't let healing begin if we don't go through the open door in front of us.....

[Hidden in reply to fauxartist]

I don’t know if I can go through that door—

It feels out of reach...

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

I hear you.... we sometimes just don't want to let go of what we thought we had....but the question you need to ask yourself is this... have they moved on.... will staying where you are going to change anything.... is waiting and hoping a guarantee they will come back?.... and how long to you hold hope for something that may never be.....

[Hidden in reply to fauxartist]

Alright.

I’ll try to.

Thank you.

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

are you talking to a counsellor, therapist, doing any group work to help.... I know writing here helps me work through stuff... I'm glad your sharing...hang in there....

[Hidden in reply to fauxartist]

I’m not talking to a counselor, nor therapist.

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

it's food for thought... there also may be groups on line like this one too that specifically are dealing with loss and grief and learning to let go... it's worth a look around.... I hope you feel better soon.....keep sharing... I find it helps me.....I hope it does you too....

[Hidden in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you, I appreciate your support.

And I’ll try.

[ShayO3]

It’s like you wrote my feelings and thoughts about my ex husband. We haven’t been together for more than 10 years but I can’t seem to move on or stop thinking about what could have been if I not been a hot mess.