I had a really bad weekend. I turned to alcohol and I need to not do that. I lost a friend because I drank and acted stupid (not even positive what i did) and am going through a divorce and just feeling really lost. Everyone tells me how nice I am and always gives me compliments, but then I have my anxiety and crash and feel worthless and as much as I hate to actually say it... sometimes I just don't want to live... that's not easy to admit to people you love... Can anyone relate? I try to escape to sleep, but often times have nightmares. I'm just a mess.