My first posting. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression I have had two suicide attempts in the last 8 months. Some days I feel okay, but usually it is an effort just to push through the day and all i want to do is stay curled up in bed which is the only place that feels safe and comforting. I go to therapy once a week and attend a free group twice a week but I still feel isolated. I also feel guilty because my family tries to be understanding and helpful but sometimes there is nothing they can do. I try a myriad of coping activities when i can muster the will to do them.
I am open to feedback and sharing, i just need to feel connected to others who suffer the same or similar
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I can understand how you feel it’s been a few years since but I’ve stood on the edge of a bridge a few times I’ve always talked myself out of it but it was never easy sometimes it would be hours. It’s surprisingly easy to feel isolated even in room of people. How do you like therapy never tried it myself? What kind of activities do you like to do?
I hated my intensive outpatient group therapy, but i love my one on one therapist. Lately i try to do just about anything to keep my mind busy so it doesn't take me somewhere dark. Binge watching shows, adult coloring books, relaxation yoga, meditations, the occasional walk. I have to take sedatives at night now because otherwise i don't sleep, but being a night person by nature my body tends to fight it.
I just get tired of feeling this way all the time. I know this isn't the most positive reply, but the last few weeks have really been a struggle.
That’s good and yeah I do the same just stay busy and getting to sleep is hard for me too. It’s ok to not be positive that just means you gotta find reasons to be positive. And I know the struggle can be really hard buts it worth fighting.
I can definitely relate to you. Everyday is a struggle I try to get by one day at a time. Some days just feels impossible 😞. I'm a mother of 3, currently a stay at home mom. I'm married. And my biggest struggle is not having a supportive husband.
It's important to follow any prescribed treatment when you've had past troubles like this. I feel very badly for you, and I sincerely hope that you will turn things around. You're welcome to post here anytime.
I wouldn't want that for you either. The food sucks in the psychiatric hospital and jail😁😉. We weren't given second/third chances for nothing. There is a plan in place for our lives. There's a beautiful peaceful life at the end of the rainbow. Hang in there, don't give up. Surround yourself with positive inspirational people and things. Things will get better for you.
I agree with you, some days it is better and some days all you can do is hold the pieces of yourself together just barely. When I find myself thinking about suicide, I always think about who would be affected or if I’m in a particularly negative mood and think no one would give a f*** then I just think of the fact that I don’t want my roommates and family to have to deal with decluttering my bedroom since it’s a mess and I’m a hoarder lol 😂. But seriously, if you haven’t you should try some creative activities like writing, painting, coloring, learning an instrument. Or, I just started a bullet journal for my mental health and my life and it’s super distracting for your mind because all you’re focused on is making it look good and figuring out what pages you want in it. End note, just know that you aren’t alone and we are both stuck out in the middle of the ocean together. Sending you love and positive vibes
I can 100% relate to you. Everyday from the minute I wake up until the minute I finally manage to fall asleep I feel I’m fighting a battle to survive no matter we’re I am, what I’m doing the minute I open my eyes from sleep I go to war with meself, It’s happened for that long now It’s as much a part of my daily routine as brushing my teeth now. My safe place was always my bed to away from everything and everyone until Anxiety finally managed to that from me also. Having lived threw 2 suicide attempts I no longer see that as a way out just another battle I lost. I can’t ever see myself living life again, each day is just another battle the only thing that seems to make me smile and battle threw is watching ppl around me I love, enjoying and living life like I once did. You arnt alone and never will be xxx
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