Someday..

[eatpraylove]

Does anybody else get this feeling that you are out of place in the world? I have that feeling. I guess I've always had that feeling, looking back now. I feel out of place everywhere I go in my life, every step of my life. I feel uncomfortable in my own body. There's always something holding me back. Something that's not letting me shine my light on this world. That's depression. Depression is holding me back from who I can become, from who I would be without it. I need to find my home in the world. I need to find my rightful spot in the world. I need to belong. I need to feel the comfort of being in the right place at the right time. I need to feel the comfort of being alive, and knowing that's it the right decision for me. For me, as in me and not others. I know it's the right decision for others, but I NEED to know that it's the right decision for me. I need to find it. Somehow, somewhere. I keep fighting. I keep searching, for the happiness in the world. For the comfort of living. To feel the love of others. To feel the warmness when somebody says "I love you". I will find it, one day. Someday....

[Hidden]

You will find it someday I bet, don't listen to those depressing thoughts telling you that you won't, they are only thoughts, not actions.

It's good you have joined this group, you are now part of a group of people who have been through what you are going through, they will be here to listen to you and try to give you advice an friendship.

Keep believing that someday you will find what you desire in life, take action and you will find it.

[eatpraylove in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, I truly appreciate all the positive comments that you gave me. It means a lot to me!

[Hidden in reply to eatpraylove]

You are very welcome and you can chat with me anytime.

[eatpraylove in reply to Hidden]

Same goes for you

[dee_bells]

You will find love. I think we’re all in this endless search to fit into the “imperfect” world.

Are you seeing a therapist? This may be something worth exploring.

I’m at that stage in life that I don’t give a crap about a lot but I still have feelings.

Searching and finding your way in the world is normal. There’s a zillion people wandering around in the world aimlessly. You have self-awareness and that’s the first step. I wish you the best on your journey. Take care. 🌻🌻🌻🌻

[eatpraylove in reply to dee_bells]

Thank you! And yes, I am seeing a therapist, and have been for quite some time. I'm sorry you are going through this journey. If you ever need anything, let me know!

[FinnPanda]

Thank you for posting this.

For a past few days I’ve been feelig exactly the same. I feel completely lost and don’t know what to do/where to go. And it’s exhausting.

So thank you for this, I have struggled to put my feelings into words but you did it; it felt like you were reading my mind.

We’ll get through this. You’re not alone we can fight depression together.

[eatpraylove in reply to FinnPanda]

Wow, that's awesome that there was so much similarity between our thoughts. I'm glad we were able to connect in this way.