hi I have suffered with anxiety most of my life. I get anxious when I’m put into a new situation or have to go on vacations. I would actually make myself sick, need to go to bed and sleep and it would affect my appetite. I outgrew or I thought I had until around menopause. Around that time my mom was very sick, I had to travel for work and leave my young daughter with my ex or mom. My mom would make me feel guilty for leaving her or if we would go on vacation away from her. That’s about the time my anxiety came back.
My mom has since passed, my daughter is grown and I vacation alone with friends. But I find I get myself all worked up 2 weeks prior, can’t eat, relax and just want to stay home. I don’t and push myself to go. Once I’m away I tend to calm down and take a Xanax if I need it. I think I get upset because of the “unknowns” of being away from the safety of my home. I’m not depressed and generally a happy person.
I just want to get this anxiety under control and beating myself up because I want to take a vacation! I wake up in a panic sometimes in the mornings too. Any advice as to how to get this under control? I’ve tried breathing techniques and cannot do yoga, bad hip.