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I wrote this morning that i had a rough morning but will try to do what is on my list anyway and try to be positive. Well, i would say 80% of that i have managed. In the middle of the day i had a few hours when i felt very anxious...again the same thoughts that i have to fight it every day and it would never be better. But i have managed to go about my business, keep doing things from the list.

as reward when i got home and got promising email, and another one -later on.

i felt better. And i started listening (the second time) to Pema Chodron text(about meditation and her teachings in Buddhism) and i felt stronger. I was a part where she says about feeling alone and how you deal with that. It was very appropriate for me today. I still have to listen again to understand better, it is not simple text to get into. But even voice of the person who is reading it is soothing for me.

I also did a few exercises today. So i would give myself B+. It was not easy day, i am still waiting for those to come, but i was able to stop my negative thinking at some point, so i would praise myself and keep going.

thank you for letting me share. Love and peace to everyone.

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I think you get an A+ for making the effort of doing things despite how you were feeling. Sometimes the small things are the biggest victory, even some days getting out of bed can be a massive win.

I feel a lot like what’s the point in trying to make my life better when it’s always going to be like this.. but for me it does help to have a routine, and to have small goals set out.

Buddhism meditation is great. So it’s really good that you enjoy listening to it.

And even exercising when you haven’t been feeling well, that’s a massive thing. So well done. You seem to have a lot of strength!

Keep pushing forward ☺️

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thank you so much. this morning was also very difficult, but i am ok now, have things to do and going to do it

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Way to go!! It’s work, isn’t it? But well worth it. I wish you continued success!

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yes, it is an effort. but i hope it makes me stronger : had also difficult morning, but now is much better, thank you!

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Progress...not perfection! 😅