Ever So Suddenly.

[Shanm2]

I dont know where it came from, Everything seemed fine this morning. My head was okay. I'd done everything i normally do, but for some reason this evening i was watching tv and the topic of self harming came up.

I changed what i was watching as these things can become a trigger to me, but it was to late.

The thought had already snapped back into my mind. Just like that.

Normally doing some reading or writing, or going for a long walk do help when certain thoughts or urges come to me. So that exactly what i did, but i cannot get this demanding thought/urge out of my head. I haven't done anything like s/h in such a long time.

Now I'm in a panicked state because all it can take is a thought like this and i can fall into a place i fear so much. There are people i can call. family, friends, support, helplines.

But i just feel completely foolish doing so, Embarrassed and just dont want to let my family down again, they've been down this roads with me many times before. I hope it goes away. Fingers crossed.

[huskyowner234]

hey, shamm2 this community is here for you. we are all here for you.

I want to say your an amazing & courageous person for seeking out a community to ask for help! Most people are too scared to seek help. BUT... NOT YOU. this why I think you're amazing it takes a lot of energy and courageous action to find another community who struggle with the same thing we do!

I think I can speak for all the members of this community, that we think your amazing & we are always here for you

[AZ1970]

I’m glad you reached out to us. You are doing the right things. Calling a helpline is perfect. They are not invested emotionally like your family is. The more you focus on your health and well-being, the less strength the thought will have. Keep distracted. Break the time into segments. Celebrate every 20 minutes you get through. Before you know it, you will be through this and amazed at your strength.

[Hidden]

Hi Shann2,

Firstly you won’t be letting your family down for seeking help.

Personally when I feel like this, I can’t listen to music, or walk or do anything. I have to sit and not move at all until it passes, sometimes it’s not for ages and I fall asleep.

But we are all here for you to talk to, and to help support in any way we can!

You have fought this long. You might not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel but just know that it’s there and it won’t be long until you reach it

take care x

[LittleMsSunshine]

My therapist would tell me to hold an ice cube each in my hands whenever I feel that irresistible urge to cut. It works because I am so focused on the physical pain and sensation of the cold, I can momentarily forget about my desire to cut.