Please help..

[Lindsey14]

It feels like my life is spiraling out of control... I've felt so unreal and not myself. I feel like im forgetting everything and everyone i care about...feels like im forgetting me. Im tired of feeling numb/ no emotions. Im tired of questioning random crap. Im tired of not doing the things i used to love. My friend cuts and i found out she did it again and im so heartless. Im a terrible person, i just want my life back...im losing hope

[hrutger]

Thanks for being honest. I can't offer any sugar-coated advice, but I wish you the best. Feeling like a terrible person doesn't actually mean you ARE one.

[1OshunDreamer]

Lindsey14, I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I'm hanging on by my fingernails myself. I'm fighting that spiral so much right now because I've been in that place you are.

The first advice I'd give is that you cannot feel heartless or that you are a terrible person. you sound like you need to take care of you right now and your friend needs to find a professional for her cutting. I get wanting to be there for you friends, I always want to do the same. But who is going to help her when you find yourself completely out of control?

Are you on meds or seeking professional help?

[Lindsey14 in reply to 1OshunDreamer]

Yes i have meds

[1OshunDreamer in reply to Lindsey14]

Talk to your Dr. to make sure you have the right ones. Are you seeing a counselor?

I think you've taken a brave step to ask for help here. I find talking it out through here and journaling helps. For me it helps straighten sections of that spiral to make things manageable.

[Lindsey14 in reply to 1OshunDreamer]

Thank you♡

[1OshunDreamer]

How have you been feeling?