So I’m kind of nervous writing this, this is my first time in an online support group. I’ve been in AA before and I know how it goes... “Hi my name is Angie and I have bipolar type 1 and anxiety and depression and PTSD and a drinking problem and a benzo problem and psychosis and epilepsy and well I need help..”
“Welcome Angie”
I know no one here is out to judge me but I feel like all eyes are on me. Like the world is out to get me. Like I’m not a good person. Like I’m not a good mother to my two year old son. Or I’m not even a good wife. I’m only 23 and I’ve attempted suicide twice. Almost nailed that one time. But now that I have a family I’m so scared of death and these re occurring thoughts of just everything scare the heck out of me.
I need help.
I’m not on the proper medication. I’m not on proper mental health plan. I’m not on the proper track of anything. And I am scared.