I'm not okay!!!

[Weaty]

I pretend I'm ok and smile, but my thoughts are so dark and I feel so empty inside.

I get stuck in my dark thoughts and I can't find a way out.

I'm in so much pain and dead inside!

[Tedddy]

The fact that you feel pain definitely means you are not dead inside. Do you have a therapist? Medications? Those help me a little. I also find that when I'm feeling extra down, physically standing up and going for a walk helps. It takes all my energy cause I just want to sink into a pile on the floor, but going outside, breathing, and walking (usually barefoot) helps bring me out a little.

[Weaty in reply to Tedddy]

Used to have one but it got extremely expensive to do sessions. Yes I'm on medication and I think they just getting me by.

I'll try the walking thing

[Tedddy in reply to Weaty]

Just getting by is something I can relate to. Even on meds I still don't feel like myself, and the anxiety and depression are still there, just slightly numbed I guess. Maybe we haven't found meds that are the right fit? Psychiatrists and therapists are soooo expensive but worth it. I wish insurance would pay for more mental health services.

[Weaty in reply to Tedddy]

Insurance pays, but my medical savings isn't enough to go as frequently as I need it

[Tedddy in reply to Weaty]

Yeah that's been the case for me and soooo many others too. There should be more affordable services because we aren't a small minority you know? SO many people need help.