Harsh reality hit me

[MandyBueno]

t's like i'm stuck in a cycle that keeps happening, nothing better happens, life suddenly became predictable. I stopped my meds around 2 weeks ago after i realised my grades were decreasing. I had to choose between being mentally ok or graduating, i picked option 2. I used to love my job and everything related to it. Now everytime i wake up in the morning i just want the day to be over. Sometimes i think i Will never be able to move from this place and get the opportunity to live a calm lifestyle. I feel unhealthy, i almost got hit by a car this morning because i have numbed, i no longer feel like a human but a Zombie. I hate my workplace and the people. Their laughs comes towards me all the time it is uneasy. I won't be getting any days off to relax. I am not a working machine and i Just can t tell my boss im too tired because good professionals are never tired. My coworker is mistreating our students she keeps pushing them, yesterday it got to my nerves and i saw myself running directly to the coordinator's room, i had to tell her whats been going on in the classroom. To sum up nothing gets better, i am not payed enough and my goals seems out of reach. I cannot take any of my meds until i'm done with my tests.

[Orangeblossom85]

Mandy, why won’t you change your work place?