The story no one wants to let me tell

[Allie3684]

Hi, my name is Allie. I’ve had anxiety since I can remember. My anxiety got worse after I had my first boyfriend in highschool and he sexually assaulted me(not rape, but did things to me while I cried and begged him to stop) when I was 15, and had not yet gone through puberty. After, I was confused, scared, and uncomfortable with myself and wouldn’t let anyone touch me, including family. After graduating highschool I was happy to get a fresh start in college. My first semester was wonderful and I had such high hopes for my future. But, my spring semester of freshman year, I lost my virginity at 19 by being raped in a bathroom. A year later, I attempted suicide, but was found unconscious and unresponsive by my roommate. Since I have been to therapy on and off, but I still struggle all the time. My last therapist didn’t want me to talk about the events that took place, and I feel a little lost. If my therapist doesn’t even want to hear about it, who will?

[Hidden]

Hi Allie3684

So sorry to hear of your struggles and what has happened to you.

You mention your last therapist didn’t want you to talk about it, in my experience usually they do like you to talk about it, So not sure of the idea behind how the therapist worked and her/his reasons.

Sometimes it takes time to get the right therapist to help.

I would certainly , if possible, try a different one.

I wish you well 🌺🌼🌺🌼 xx

[Allie3684 in reply to Hidden]

She (my therapist) said she felt that we didn’t need to talk about these situations since they’re in the past, and that it’s more important to focus on the present. Which I agree with, to some extent. I also think that in order to focus on the present, I have to work through the struggles I have with what happened. It was a little frustrating, because therapy should be a place for people to talk about things they know are bothering them specifically. I’m set up to meet with a new therapist next week, so I hope I have a better and more helpful experience. Also, thank you for taking the time to read and reply!

[fauxartist in reply to Allie3684]

sorry but this is the worst therapist I've ever heard of.....how else are you supposed to work through trauma unless you address it....it's a form of PTSD, what the heck. You cannot just forget about it. Please get a qualified trauma therapist who has a brain cell and understands the need to work through this stuff.....I am so sorry all this has happened, and there are those of us here who have also gone through this...you’re not alone here..and nobody will tell you to forget about it.....

[Hidden]

Your story sounds kinda like mine! Maybe you need to find a new therapist, not right they won't listen to you. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right connection with one! I wish for you peace! XXX

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry that you had to endure those two unwanted experiences. I have no pertinent advice for you, but wanted you to know that you’re more than welcome to share here. I know I’m more than happy to listen! Maybe you should try another therapist? Sharing is a big step and I applaud you for that. Keep your head up! I wish you peace and joy!

[Hidden]

Hi Allie, I know this post was written a few weeks ago, but I just want you to know I can relate to you more than you know .

I haven’t ever been raped, but I was sexually molested by a female family member when I was only 3 years old & it continued on for the next couple of years.

I never told anyone until much later & people kept trying to keep me from talking about it.

A few months ago, my long term boyfriend that I’ve been with since I was sixteen pushed me out of a vehicle while it was driving down the road, & I was pregnant. I lost the baby that night & only a few weeks later I also attempted suicide. My mama found me unresponsive & unconscious as well.

I’m now seeing a therapist & even though it’s only been just a few times that I’ve seen him, I’ve tried telling him the events of both things that happened to me... He will shut me down each & every time.

I’m not sure what they are trying to do by keeping us quiet about this. It’s not like we can block it out. I don’t know about you, but it’s all I can think about.

I have panic attack’s every single night from the events of the accident & the molestation that occurred when I was a little girl.

I’m really lost & unsure of what to do. I know I don’t have any sound advice for you, but I wanted you to know you’re not alone.

Keep talking about it. This site has been so amazing since I’ve been on it & just having people read what we write & reply is so therapeutic for me.

If you need to talk, please don’t be afraid to pm me. I don’t have all the answers, but I get you. <3

I wish you peace in the days to come, Allie.

[Mireyaozzieg]

Those are Traumas that are deep in our Hearts that need to be shared my pastor has always said we need to release it by talking about it he has even advice me to see counseling and therapy because that will long term help me to grow and fully let go but if its all inside its truly deep rooted in the heart in mind all be praying for u for God to restore u and heal you at age 7 i was domestically abused pretty hard for about a year then age 16 my boy friend would beat me up a lot for 8 years he would always thread then me not to leave him and later on we got married and when i was trying to divorce he raped me for his own pleasure so i completely understand your pain and if u ever need to chat am here 4 you.

[Itsjustmeagain]

I'm very sorry you had such bad things happen, yet I can relate as having similar

Things happen.

It sometimes takes going through many therapist to find the right one but don't give up you have to keep looking ,and when you get the right one it will be help.