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[Bobbi07]

Hi, I just joined today. Was happy to see support group online. I have suffered from major depression and anxiety for most of my adult life. Right now my depression is out of control.

[guynfl2chat]

hello Bobbi!

Welcome. I mostly suffer from anxiety, but I understand how depression can make you feel. Where are you from?

[Bobbi07 in reply to guynfl2chat]

Ontario, California

[Nadi1106]

Hi Bobbi,

I think you will find alot of support here as i have, I suffer from depression. Just remember you are never alone in anything..

[StarryNight72]

Hi Bobbi,

I, too, have been diagnosed with MDD and anxiety. I was first diagnosed over 30 years ago and I am considered treatment resistant. So, I can relate to having the depression and the anxiety “out of control”. Can you share what you are feeling now specifically? Sometimes it helps to really define exactly how and what you are feeling, at least that’s been my experience. Just know that whatever lies your depression is telling you, we are all here as warriors to help you fight back against the darkness. You are not alone. And I, for one, am virtually holding hand and ready to fight on your behalf.

[Bobbi07 in reply to StarryNight72]

Wow, I was diagnosed with MDD when I was 25, I am now 64, so I DO understand. I have been on almost every anti-depressant out there. Sometimes I do well, but not now. Had S/A on 5/22. I just feel lost and so sad and hopeless.

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Welcome!!!! Are you getting help? I'm sending you joy..wait...catch it! Hugs! XXX

[lovetodance2018]

Welcome to this group. We are here for you and we do understand struggling through depression and anxiety. Are you getting the professional help you need? Whenever my depression was spiraling, my medication would need to be adjusted. Then I would need to figure out what my triggers were. I will be praying for you to find the right medication. Wellbutrin is what worked for me. However, medication alone, was not what helped me improve. I also needed the right counseling. Are you getting counseling? This group (bit.ly/2DS3v7S) can lead you to the right counselor. Also, once I learned what my triggers were, and knew I was falling into depression and that dark place, I would work on the techniques I learned. One main technique is learning to keep my thoughts in check. Battlefield of the Mind (bit.ly/2IQhptu) is a great book to help with that. It teaches how faith along with being aware of our thoughts helps us have control and not the disease have control of us. I also found this site that shares some inspiration (bit.ly/2JeZvl3) on how to keep life in perspective through healthy insight. You will be in my thoughts and prayers this week. Please keep us posted how you are doing. Hugs!

[Bobbi07 in reply to lovetodance2018]

Yes, I have been going to a therapist since 2009, but he went out on medical leave and I thought I would be ok. NOT. Had S/A on 5/22. But I have found a new psychologist I see next week. I will look for that book. Thank you. I am currently on Cymbalta, but may need adjustment. I let my thoughts and fears go to the dark side and did not put them in check.

[Bobbi07]

Ontario, California

[lovetodance2018]

Hi Bobbi,

I am sorry to hear your therapist went out on medical leave. It is hard to feel comfortable with someone and then they are not available to be there for you. I am happy to hear you are starting to see a new psychologist, though I know it will be hard to feel comfortable with that person at first. It also took me almost a year to find the right medicine and I had many S/A for many years until I had the right medication and therapy. Also, finding my triggers was essential to my healing. Plus, giving myself a break, knowing that I am struggling at the times, and it is ok and part of the disease, but I will feel better. Just remind yourself every day that you are struggling that you will feel better.

It will take time to establish a relationship and trust but it is possible. I know you just want to feel better and seeing someone is very important in improving. I am glad you will read through the book - our minds are really a battlefield, but it doesn't have to stay that way, we can have control over our thoughts. I have learned to take my thoughts captive. It is not easy, but as soon as a dark or unhealthy thought comes into my mind, I am aware of it, and then change it to something positive or healthy. It takes work at first, but then it gets easier. I also pray over those thoughts and give it to God. My faith has really been a help getting through depression. I had people who prayed with me and encouraged me. Know I am here for you and if even need to chat or want to pray just pm me. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs.