After narrssits abuse I feel hollow inside..

Now what do I do? Just don't feel anything anymore...

[Strongheartforever]

Can you work on your computer graphics art and create something? Maybe it would be cathartic and you can turn your sadness into beauty. I’ve been reading David Sedaris books to get me laughing. Watch an old comedy you used to like. Lighten up maybe and relax and take care of yourself. Do something small to bring some joy back. Thinking of you and sending you some light!

[Hidden in reply to Strongheartforever]

Ok thanks I've been drawing too much perhaps I need to do something else..

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

Didn't you say you played the piano? Challenge yourself with new songs or take up something cool like the guitar. 😊🎸

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I'm stuck lol learning by myself is kinda hard. I'm trying to learn mountain king and dense macabre xD

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

There are so many tutorials on YouTube. My daughter, who is not amused by the type of songs I play, challenged me to play Dangerous Woman by Ariana Grande on guitar. YouTube was the only way I could have pulled it off (quick riff buried in the mix).

Mountain King is a great song. The more you challenge yourself and the more progress you make, the more addictive it becomes.

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Yeah thanks I don't play guitar because my hand are too small. I guess I'll just stick with piano

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

I would think that the piano would require long fingers.

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Yeah my fingers are thin and long you can check out my YouTube XD

[Marshall64 in reply to Hidden]

How did you come up with your username? Sounds peaceful.

[Hidden in reply to Marshall64]

Living in Canada long enough to make me thought about it 😆

[Strongheartforever in reply to Hidden]

What else could bring you joy? How about write out a gratitude list now, here, and we will all see it. Can you name 5 things you are grateful for? This is proven to improve mood and bring happiness back. There is suffering, lots of it, in the world. But, we must balance our lives and appreciate all of our good fortune that we have: clean water, family, good work, friends, freedom, health, nature, culture, all sorts of beautiful things available to us.

[Marshall64 in reply to Strongheartforever]

Totally agree. I have to remind myself the same thing. Once I think about my blessings, it changes my outlook. Unfortunately, it is a constant battle in my mind (which is a scary place 😊).

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Kinda like the megadeth song sweeting bullets.

[Hidden in reply to Strongheartforever]

Well I like to listen to classical music I like stuff that is not popular. XD

[Hidden]

I think it is normal to feel the way you do in your situation. You are feeling the after affects of the abuse. It will take time for you to return to normal. Don’t let these symptoms discourage you. It is part of the healing process. It shows you are on the road to recovery. Try to ride this storm out and know the sun will shine again. Easier said than done I know. We are here with you so you aren’t alone in this time of trial.

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Thank you so much at least I don't cry anymore

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

That is another sign of progress. Allowing yourself to express your emotions wether by crying or another healthy outlet is good. No shame in crying. It is a natural response. It helps us cope.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yeah thanks I mean I let go of my grudges. Its useless anyway

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yeah we all need to learn that. Grudges make us feel safe. We don’t have to progress when we can hold on to the past. It’s hard to let go of a grudge. Human nature being what it is.

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But it doesn't do you any good and you don't hurt the other person either.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

So it’s like you are spiting yourself in the end when you hold a grudge?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Er I just let it go

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

My niece sings that song. Let it go.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Lol it's overrated...

[Strongheartforever in reply to Hidden]

That’s some good wisdom. Your conversation here is healing you and others. Thank you for sharing your pain, progress and insight.

[Hidden in reply to Strongheartforever]

Glad I helped😅