Idk what's wrong with me?

[Brittany7460]

So....im prescribed xanax 1.5 mg twice a day. This is over a 3 year span of being on xanax everyday. I've been on the 3 mg daily for a Lil over a year or so. Tonight I took my dose like an hour or so early which worries me. I always try to make myself wait the recommended 8 hours or I fear of overdose. So I put a whole 1 mg tablet in my mouth, and it tasted funny, so I spit it out. I know sounds crazy. But I couldn't help it. So I know I had to swallow some but not all so not sure exactly how much I took. Then I took a half of a 1 mg tablet because I was like gosh I gotta take something. Then 2 hours from then took a half of a fourth of a 1 mg tablet, so a crumb,and the same dose again an hour later just cuz still feeling on edge. I worry about overdoing it. Idk exactly how much I swallowed from the 1 mg tablet that i spit out. It wasn't a lot that I could tell but couldn't tell exactly cuz it was so dissolved and watery spit. Why do I do this shit to myself? I worry about taking to much...if so my normal dose at each dosing is 1.5 mg and i took 1.75, or could be less than 1.5 mg so means I took less then normally do so I worry about withdrawal's in my sleep or something. I can't win for losing. Either I worry about overdosing or withwithdrawaling.