Someone to talk to.

[Imhere456]

I have been trying find help. The more I search for it the more I feel like I get knocked down and like it doesn’t even matter if I get help or not. I need someone to talk to and support but no one seems to understand. I feel like the more I try to get out of this hole the deeper it gets. I have had extremely bad anxiety for a while now. It’s hard to even go to the grocery store any more. When I get around a lot of people I almost feel like I go into a dream like state and it scares me and them I start to feel panic. I always worry someone is going to die that day. Recently it has turned into anxiety and depression. I don’t even want to leave my room. I don’t want to be alone but no one understands what’s going on in my head... I don’t even understand it. And the comments that have been made when I have tried to talk to someone about it has only made things worse for me.

[Broken_girl123]

Hello. I am here. I recently have been feeling depressed and deeply anxious as well due to the fear of being abandoned. I am here to listen. I also feel like nobody can understand me anymore. People have pushed me away due to my depression and idk what to do to cure it myself

[Imhere456 in reply to Broken_girl123]

I feel like I’ve been pushed away too. I have straight out asked and told my husband I need help and someone to listen and talk to. And I have told him I am easily irritated. I have tried to completely open up and let him know what’s going on the best that I can and now I feel like he has tried to distance himself from me and like he can’t atand to be around me. And I know I’m not the most joyous person to be around right now but idk... I thought being upfront and honest about what was going on would help him be more supportive but instead I’ve been rejected.

[Broken_girl123 in reply to Imhere456]

It was the same for me and my guy best friend. He was there for me at the start. Then he said you can't be helped, at least not by me and now he no longer listens to me. He no longer sees any point in it. My other friends also started withdrawing from me now. Nobody really has the time to deal with depressed people. Only we can understand what it feels like. I'm sorry you're going through this with your husband. I hope he sees you need his support right now more than ever.

[Imhere456 in reply to Broken_girl123]

I hope things get better for you. If you want to talk and tell me what’s going on or need to get something off your chest I’m here to listen.

[bonkers65]

Yes it's hard to find someone who really understands what we are going through. It would be good if you could find a support group. That's what I'm trying to do but no luck so far.

[Imhere456 in reply to bonkers65]

Yea I wish I could find one. I can’t even find a psychiatrist because of my insurance. It makes me so mad. I literally feel like I’m begging for help and it’s like everyone is turning there back. I just sit and cry some times cause it’s taken me a while to even come to terms with the fact that I can’t do this on my own. And now that I’m looking for help no one is there.

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Hello you arent alone in here nd feel the same way