Ugh

[Meerkat1993]

So I look in the mirror and get mental images of me hanging myself.. I'm home alone and it's scary. But I know I wouldn't do it.

[Agora1]

Meerkat1993, you may know that you wouldn't do it, but I don't. Is there anyone who can be with you right now? Has this been on ongoing mental image? Do you have a therapist you can call? So many questions, but we need to keep you safe. Please talk to the forum, it can help you clear your thoughts. xx

[Meerkat1993 in reply to Agora1]

I'm fine.. Just dealing with a horrible migraine right now so I probably won't be on much for the rest of the day.

[Agora1 in reply to Meerkat1993]

Meerkat1993, I'm sorry about the migraine. I went through that for years so I understand. Best thing is to avoid the light of the computer or phone and take care of yourself. Feel better.xx

[fauxartist in reply to Meerkat1993]

I have migraines too my friend but seeing yourself hanging in the mirror is not what I get with them...I agree with Agora1...this is not a good thing ... and being alone with this isn't good.

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Tell those thoughts to screw off, I have to do that too because at night before sleep I get ugly negative thoughts and images in my mind, trying to take over the positive I still have. Don't let the negative win. We are better, stronger and are worth more than what those negative thoughts and images show us.

[eaer]

I went to the hospital when I had IDEAS of that kind. This is very serious that you even can think of a way to harm yourself permanently.

When I went to the emergency room, I called it “wanting to go away” even though I said I had no plan.

You are different than that. You have a method in your mind. Whether you believe it or not, having a method (even if you think you won’t use it) is when you call 911, or get yourself to a hospital with a psychiatry ward...now.

Do not spend time thinking about whether to go or not...just trust me, you DO need some psychiatric help. Your mind is thinking upon things that could seriously harm you and if you were ok, you would NOT contemplate suicidal ideas.

Please go, do not wait! Just go!

Believe me, I know how it feels to think this way. I was just in the hospital, and I now do not even have a thought like this anymore. I changed back to healthy thinking without a need for these “possibly harmful” thoughts. I cannot take a chance when I feel this way. You cannot either.

Please just go. Even ask someone to take you or go yourself.

This IS considered being suicidal when you have these thoughts, even if you do not think you will act on them. You can feel better than this...do not be scared...just go to the hospital with a psychiatry ward.

Take good care now. I care about you.

Sincerely, Emily

[fauxartist in reply to eaer]

your post is very compelling and heart felt...I hope your message is taken to heart...

[Agora1 in reply to eaer]

Emily, nothing is more profound than hearing this from someone who has experienced the feeling and idea. It is not a normal response to stress. It is a red flag that professional help is needed. I am so glad you sought help for yourself. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you my best. xx