Episode/wave

[DepressedWorm]

Does anyone with depression randomly get sudden waves of intense sadness, or what I call them episodes? I'm in one right now and it's lasted since around 11:00am, it's 5:46pm now. It's quite painful, especially in my chest and my arms feel so heavy and everything (even typing this) is exhausting. Today's been so crap, and my GCSE's are in 3 days. I've always been terrified of getting an episode during the exam because when I'm in one I cannot do anything. I already know of i get into one I'll instantly fail that paper, there's no one to blame but me. I can't even do anything because it's too late. If I do get one, is there any way out of it? I feel like I've tried everything. I wish I could make it stop, especially during school. I didn't do anything productive today, I don't even know if I should even try, I don't even know if I was trying before. My friend said that I always try to do the least and I think she's right, I haven't worked hard enough, so I shouldn't even be surprised when I fail.