How to feel like myself again

My father died recently. It's complicated, but I have known in my gut that his death would change my life. The people I knew who made me feel like, well, myself are out of my life, maybe permanently. I'm now unemployed. My housing situation is not good. I have never felt so wrong, so uncomfortable in my own skin. I want to tear my hair out and fall asleep forever at the same time. I have a counselor, meds, a journal, but much of the time this is almost unbearable.

[fauxartist]

I very sorry for your loss LisaRei.....it takes a long time to go through the grief of loosing someone close, and in a way it's always with you. And to not feel secure in your home, or comfortable with yourself just compounds the issues. I know everyone here always says the same thing...but it's true...therapy to help you sort out your grief process, and what's going on with you could help...it's trial and error .... you have to find a good fit with a therapist... but when you do...its very helpful....

[Hidden in reply to fauxartist]

Thanks. My therapist is awesome. We've been together for years. I'm thinking the safest thing is to check into a hospital for a while. I don't trust that I can take care of myself right now

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Follow your gut feeling LisaRei as well as the suggestion of your doctor. Just as there is a time and place for medication, there can also be for hospitalization. When I was in the same position as you, I choose the intense therapy that I could get from in patient. It was the best decision I could have made for myself at the time. It allowed me to be in a safe place where therapy and support were around me 24/7. I was able to work on myself without the daily struggles of home life. Good Luck with your decision. x

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I am truly sorry for your loss, you are the only one that can make the decision as you deem fit. Hope you get the help you need.