Bad day but got thru it. Thank you all.

After fighting with my brother I let him make me feel really bad. I was so bad I was contemplating suicide. Actually I head down that road with pills and alcohol. When I started feeling weird I stopped and got sick. Drank lots of water and should have gone to the er but rode it out. Several of you kept after me at a point I wasn’t listening and still thank you for trying. Maybe this site needs some kind of panic button for such emergencies. My roommate came home and stayed up all night just keeping and eye on me and holding me.

I am heading to group and not sure how to share this with them. I know there is not supposed to be any judgement there but I fear there will be. Yes I am scared to go but I know it is the best thing for me even if the staff feels I need to be hospitalized. God bless and have a happy Easter to all.

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I'm sorry you felt you were unable to stop that impulse and felt you had to give up, but I'm very glad you are okay and going to group. I don't think a site like this would give you a quick enough response to a crisis situation, and your definitely at that point...I found this site because of another here who had felt the same....theswordmovie.com/resources/

It lists a number of resources to contact people when your in crisis, please reach out.

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I did reach out to the hospital that I am going to group last night and think the therapist on duty and I had a good conversation and she talked me down. Still wanted me to come in but because I had friends around me she didn’t make it mandatory. She talked with my roommate for a bit too.

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

do what your comfortable with, but be open to suggestions if this therapist thinks you could use more one on one help right now. Hey....I like talking to you, your a good person and seem very kind....I understand your in a dark place now....I know that abyss all to well my friend....and today I'm glad I didn't fall in.....corny but true....getting help can at least help us cope with this stuff.

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Well about to start I enjoy talking to someone as kind and love it as you too. It helps. Got a huge apology email from my brother (suspect mother interfered) so we will have time this weekend to maybe patch up. I hope so we didn’t talk for so long.

[fauxartist in reply to Hidden]

it will be okay to let him do the apologizing....and it's okay to let him know how much it hurts you when he says certain things. But say it with care and compassion for he obviously has his own fears he is battling about something,. but if you don't feel safe at anytime with the conversation, then you just diplomatically say, well....I've said what I needed to say, and listened to what you had to say, so we can leave it on a good note and part with that. You never deserve to be abused by anyone, or hurt....so keep your heart safe...be well my friend.