Can’t sleep but don’t want to get out of bed

[Muchneeded]

Help!

I have terrible anxiety and depression.

I hate my job because every time I relapse into a depression it’s something at work that has triggered it!

I have two kids and I can’t seem to get out of this funk to be a active parent like I have always been. One of my children has ADHD and is adopted. I am having regrets taking this child on at my old age. Not only does he have ADHD he has emotional problems from his neglect and abuse as a baby.

This depression and anxiety started about 5 years ago. I had one bad bout of it and it went away for years until now. I used to be such a strong person but now I feel so out of control and I have very dark thoughts about the world would be a better place with out me in it.

If I could just stop the pain and agony somehow I it would be fine. I’m trying so hard to be here for my kids but it’s not working. I’m pushing myself to function everyday. I feel like my son’s issues have become to much for me. My husband doesn’t really help me anymore he has become very withdrawn.

My life is a shit show and I just want out!