Trust issues

My boyfriend has cheated on me in the past and right now I feel like he is but I feel guilty for not trusting him. I haven't told him that I think that. I don't think I will.

Hes left me five times , said he doesn't want or love me. After I came back from the hospital he said that he dated this girl and decided that im the only girl that he wants and he loves me and wants to spend forever with me. I don't want to have doubts but u do.