First post; I haven't told anyone I have depression.

[Austin20]

I'm not suicidal or have any urges to self-harm, but I have a constant heaviness in my head. I don't really know how to describe the feeling, but hopefully others will understand what this feels like. I'm currently in college and my performance in school has started to suffer due to the incapability of leaving my bed in the morning. I physically cannot get up, and after I realize that I am missing class I start to feel bad about myself for not going to class, even though I know how much the participation in class affects my grades. I know that I have a good support system, but I have been in my current situation before and I feel as if excuses are being made; I also don't want to be pitied. My mom is a nurse, and she believes in medicinal treatment for mental illnesses, my older sister suffers from depression. I am very appreciative of this, but being in school and far away from my family home makes it feel difficult to get the help that I may need.

Hopefully this all makes sense. Any advice would be appreciated, and I would be happy to talk to others if you feel the same way I do.

[Agora1]

Hi Austin20, it does make sense in how you are feeling physically and emotionally which is affecting your motivation to move. Your mother is right in this case in that there is a time and place for medication to be used. Depression is nothing to be embarrassed about. Rather than carrying this burden on your shoulders (which is affecting your schooling) why not see your counselor at school and let your mom know and get set up with a therapist. With a little short term medication and therapy, you could find yourself back in a good place again and being able to function each day.

That heaviness you feel in your head is all about the depressed state you are in. Until it is address, you will continue to be unmotivated. It is not your fault, just something that a therapist can help you with. Wish you well. Keep us updated