I just joined this group and I just want to feel less alone about my depression. I've had depression for so long that I can't even remember when it started. What brought me here were the persistent ruminations in my mind that won't let me live. They're always there to remind me of the things I did wrong, every mistake, every failure, and a message to never try. It's gotten so bad lately that I don't think I can handle the thoughts on my own. Just coming here is lifting the dark cloud in my mind a bit. I hope that I can share and learn from everyone to manage this illness.