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Last year I was diagnosed with thyroiditis and possible thyroid cancer. I then put myself on disability and removed myself from work. This was fine because my daughter who was 1 at the time kept me very busy. Then my anxiety and depression I've been battling for decades really kicked in from my lack of motivation and productivity. I was convinced I no longer had the strength to take care of my daughter. I allowed my mom to step in and take care of both of us. It wasn't until my grandfather passed that I was forced back into reality. I took myself off disability and went to work for an old boss who I felt comfortable with. I have been working here for 6 months now. In that time I got married and moved into a new home with my husband and daughter.I was off my behavioral and thyroid meds for a month due to change of health insurance and became incredibly depressed. I am now back on my medication and striving for a full time job in place of my part time retail position. I owe it to myself and to my family to live to my upmost potential. Every single day is a battle against my blankets. I would love to sleep forever. When I wake up I'm overwhelmed with worry and fatigue from worrying so much. At the same time I feel as though my depression is causing me to miss out on life. Miss out on the joy that comes from attending my daughter's milestones.

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Aw..your very lucky to have such a lovely Daughter. I have a lovely Daughter too. Though she's over 20😊. It would be very tempting to never go out especially as I'm over ,60. But, I'm determined not to be a burden to her. So i get up and get out each day. And each day when she rings, i tell her what a nice day i,ve had. When i was much younger i suffered from Agoraphobia not going outside for 4years! I don't want to be like that again. So like you i force myself from 'my blankets', put on my make up and go out if the door. I suspect there are many people doing the same.

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What a lovely little girl you have and I am so envious! Your life has changed out of all recognition and although it's all good it is still a strain on you.

You don't mention whether you have had or are having counselling at moment? I really think you have to learn to deal with your painful feelings and emotions before you will be able to move on properly. Ignoring them or pushing them down doesn't work as they always surface again eventually. x

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I commend you on picking your self back up, even in the midst of your loss. I was wondering if you should maybe go back to your doctor and see about whether the meds for depression are not working well enough for you. You obviously are doing your best, so I would maybe see if it's just your meds not quite right.

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What is the condition of your thyroid? Have you been diagnosed with cancer of the thyroid? What are your symptoms?

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