Last year I was diagnosed with thyroiditis and possible thyroid cancer. I then put myself on disability and removed myself from work. This was fine because my daughter who was 1 at the time kept me very busy. Then my anxiety and depression I've been battling for decades really kicked in from my lack of motivation and productivity. I was convinced I no longer had the strength to take care of my daughter. I allowed my mom to step in and take care of both of us. It wasn't until my grandfather passed that I was forced back into reality. I took myself off disability and went to work for an old boss who I felt comfortable with. I have been working here for 6 months now. In that time I got married and moved into a new home with my husband and daughter.I was off my behavioral and thyroid meds for a month due to change of health insurance and became incredibly depressed. I am now back on my medication and striving for a full time job in place of my part time retail position. I owe it to myself and to my family to live to my upmost potential. Every single day is a battle against my blankets. I would love to sleep forever. When I wake up I'm overwhelmed with worry and fatigue from worrying so much. At the same time I feel as though my depression is causing me to miss out on life. Miss out on the joy that comes from attending my daughter's milestones.