I’m not sure if I like being HAPPY

[Kitmorsy]

Everytime I begin to feel something positive, I also begin to feel fear. I think it is because I become vulnerable and I feel like in Happiness I will be weak. Somehow I feel like I am comfortable in my sadness because it is so familiar to me. I dont know how to reach further, into a happier more positive self. And when Iight starts to enter my life I shut the door. I don’t know what is out there for me. What is it like to be happy and stay happy? I wouldn’t know how to survive it.

[Hardlookcap]

When you are unhappy the opposite would be to become happy ... when you are happy the opposite to become is unhappy. Therefore when you are unhappy, the only place you can go is up. When you are happy .. it’s sadness you fear. We start forming a wall from happiness in preparation to cope w possible disappointment. This happens because we know the only way to go from being up.. is down. Happiness isn’t a constant feeling ... contentment is the sound compromise of the two ... like the main course of a meal and happiness is a snack. Happiness and sadness both work on the same wavelengths and have a lot in common w each other. We fear fear and take it out on happiness. Idk If any of that helps ...

[Traveler1]

I totally understand how you feel, you put it into words very good, it does suck though and I’ve never thought about like you have but have always had a weird feeling that things can’t always be good or worry when the ships gonna sink. Right now I have every reason to be happy yet I am not, I wish both of us could learn how to be and survive being happy, I think that would be considered peacefulness, or inner peace.