Severe anxiety

[onelittlerose]

The past few weeks have been really hard. I've been nauseous constantly, and I can't eat. My anxiety is so bad, I just don't know what to do. My mom is easily the most abusive person I've ever known- and I'm a rape survivor so I know abusive people REALLY well. I can't live like this anymore, and I'm starting to really dive into depression to lock out the world.

[MelissaC13]

Hi One. I am sorry you are going through all of this. I too am a survivor.. With this, do you live with your mom? If so, do you have domestic violence shelters where you live? They are not just for spouse abuse. It is important that you eat something. I have felt like you do. I am currently 50 pounds less than I was a year and a half ago, almost two years. Try to eat at least healthy items (beans, veggies, fruits and complex carbs). Trust that you will get through this. -Peace be to you, Melissa

P.S. I found a great mindfulness program on UCLA's website. They have a program there.

[onelittlerose in reply to MelissaC13]

Thank you so much <3

[Forestina]

How awful for you. Can you manage the nutrition drinks? You must feel so weak which will make you more anxious.

I have been going through something similar since before Christmas. I no longer heave over food but sometimes still have to slush it down with water. Even now I am only having snacks as there is nothing I really fancy and by the time I take to cook anything it is even worse. I still can't sit at a table and eat but move around to distract myself.

There is nothing worse than constant nausea and the most ridiculous thing is, that fingers crossed, I haven't vomited. Do have a growling gut though and loose bowel movements which freak me out.

I so hope you feel better soon, try and persevere, even if it's only baby portions. It's better to do that than have larger portions.

Good luck.

[onelittlerose in reply to Forestina]

I basically eat little tiny pieces of bread and some water every day and that's about it. I haven't vomited either or I would have eliminated all food and refused to even touch it. I can't go out to eat or sit at a table, I agree with you there, and the smell of food often makes me gag. I tried the nutrition drinks but couldn't drink more than a teaspoon without feeling sick.

[Forestina]

That is awful. Are you getting any help? Does it happen all the time or do you have some good days?

I have always had issues with food. I am getting nauseous now as I have a small porridge to eat. The last few days have been really bad. It started off after antibiotics but I finished those mid November.

I have such sympathy for you.

Have you tried a sip of coal? That can sometimes help.

[onelittlerose in reply to Forestina]

I have a lot of therapists and a big support group. That's so weird, mine got worse after antibiotics too! I got off them about a week ago.

[Agora1 in reply to onelittlerose]

onelittlerose, antibiotics can cause anxiety especially flouroquinolone antibiotics. They mess up the GABA Neurotransmitters and can cause benzo type withdrawal symptoms. It's not your imagination. xx

[onelittlerose in reply to Agora1]

I had no idea, I had a kidney infection and was on them for 13 days, but didn't notice a change until after I stopped them

[Agora1 in reply to onelittlerose]

Because I had weaned off my Benzos, I was told that if I ever needed antibiotics and had a choice to avoid flouroquinolone type. Sometimes there aren't choices and your safety comes first. It may last for several weeks and then go away. x

[Forestina]

That is good news in a way as it may set your mind at rest. Hope so as it could explain a lot.