I have always been anxious. I am embarrassed of the types of things I am afraid of. Doctors try to reassure me but it doesnt help much. I get fixated on a fear. My self esteem suffers as my world becomes more limited. I also have panic pop up even when i havent been aware of any intrusive thoughts and so cant place the reason; its almost as if anxiety IS me now. I feel like doom is coming so am always on guard. I keep thinking someone is choking. The sensations in the body are so uncomfortable. Venturing outside is tough some days and sometimes things seem disturbing to me. I find it difficult to concentrate on anything. I try to comfort myself but i think i have lost faith in myself. I beat up on myself. How can one go on without hope that things will get better? I try so hard all the time and I can't give up but I can't keep living this way. I used to feel a connection with God. Now I feel alone even next to people I love. What just came to mind is that I should practice Creative Visualization because it can help make goals happen, at least I think it helped me a long time ago. My goal is to be peaceful.