Lost but not giving up!

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I recently put in notice at yet another job (before I would get fired... not imagining this...I was getting warnings all the time). My managers are always frustrated w/ me b/c I can't focus or get my work done on time. I am a RN. I used to be a very good nurse and active w/ friends, but 20+ yrs of depression has left me feeling like a shell of my former self. No real friends, always feel like no one wants me around, though I display a happy, positive attitude around others. I feel like others see through this 'ruse'. I live alone w/ my 2 dogs in a very rural area. My interests include painting/drawing, photography, travelling (esp. to places where I can hike, like nat'l parks, etc.), crafts like jewelry design, hiking, snowshoeing, kayaking and reading... mostly non-fiction. I love to learn new things!