Be prepared for a post of nothing but complaining, lol. Here it goes!
It all feels like too much. I can't keep up with my life anymore. I feel like I'm on the middle part of a roller coaster and am scared to death but can't get off. I just have to ride it to the end. My daughter is 8 and has autism and I feel like she's regressing. I have a 15mo old who is already in the terrible twos. I'm going back to college online full time and can only do homework at night. But that's also when I need to clean the house. So I'm up till at least 2am. Then I have to get my daughter up at 6am to get ready for school. I'm "engaged" but it ended a long time ago. We have had no physical contact of any kind in almost a year. But I don't blame him. I was overweight before my son and I'm still fat. All I do is eat. Its all i really want to do. My "fiance" works so I can stay home with our son. And that means I am a single mom. I do all the parenting. He can't even handle watching our little boy for 10 mins. I love my children. But I don't get a break. Its all just continuous! Then we moved into a different house and the house is infested with mice and the neighborhood is crap! We have drunk people and druggies, random kids who destroy things or try to get in our house or the crawl space underneath, and homeless people just hanging out in our yard. I want so bad to get away for a while but where would I go? Who would take care of my kids? And at the same time I'd hate to go without them. I enjoy them so much! It's just sometimes they frustrate and exhaust me.
Okay, there's so much more but that's enough for now. Thank you for letting me vent!