Trying to find hope

[nighteagle]

I'm 40 years old and so far I've been diagnosed in the past with depression,major depressive disorder, mdd with psychotic episodes,bipolar depression,generalized anxiety disorder, etc. and now possibly a personality disorder.I've been on aproximately50 different medicines throughout the years with little to no help either the side effects were to bad or the medication only would work for a few months .It seems like I'll never be able to be"normal". I guess I am just wondering if I'm alone

[deea21]

We are not alone. I’m sure you can find here people who you can talk. You know, I’be been to so many doctors and therapists and hospitals that I don’t believe they couldn’t help you if you don’t work with yourself. That’s the hardest part of all. I’m still in that Black Bubble , But i know it’s my fight with myself. What’s normality?! Give me a definition. You want to be a robot of the society?! You are someone special and you need to find yourself . Kisses and hugs .

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, you are not alone, there are millions of us going thru these tortures, that is one way I console myself, I read these letters and feel sorry for all the sad tales of suffering, I am also one who is suffering. It drives me crazy, I hate feeling so powerless, I am angry I have a faulty brain. I am in a complete mess right now, resorting to staying in bed til early afternoon. I get up and watch TV that is non violent, or read, also do coloring. I feel like a small child who cannot find my mother and I am frightened. I do what I can to help myself, looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. I am 75 and in no way think I would have a breakdown at my age. I hope it will straighten its self out. I have had spells (years) when I was OK, so I am hoping I have one coming. Do not give up, search out qualified Doctors. Do the Gensense, inside on mouth is swabbed and sent to lab, they return it to your Dr. and it gives med's that are suitable for your body, I did it in Oct, it came back with 2, Dr. put me on one and I am having no side effects. I also take Lithium for bipolar depression, and 3 other med's for anxiety. I hope this will be of help for you. I send you love and Big Hugs, keep on searching, I wish you all the best. More Love, Peace, strength. Sprinkle 1