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[Ouchu]

Never really talk about how depressed i am. Its sad and makes others sad. My misery doesn't like company i guess. I feel like the only person on the planet. I lost my humor. All i do is sleep and work it seems. Maybe its easy working nights because you don't have to deal with many people. I know im not the only person that feels this way. I kind of wish i was. I don't like the thought of anyone feeling this way. I feel alone and ugly. Scared and i wish i would just get over it. I have a good life. Im the problem. My mind. Then the guilt and anger and tears. Vicious circle. Never said it out loud for everyone to hear. It sounds terrible.

[Janieliza]

Depression is a very lonely place to be. And no you aren't alone but my goodness doesn't it feel like it?. Let me say something positive to you...youve posted on here...be proud of yourself. It's not easy to open ourselves up is it? Please be assured that every single one of us has experienced at least one of these symptoms. Work tends to take our minds off what we feel 24/7 and even tho nights are ok for you...do you struggle to settle when you do get home? It's a vicious circle isn't it? Being tired doesn't help anxiety yet one can't sleep therefore anxiety, irritability creeps in. You aren't alone...losing our sense of humour is part of the nastiness of it all. The support on here is fantastic so even tho we may not offer an answer, often just talking helps. Do think about visiting a doc to chat about it if you haven't already done so. They've heard it before and are usually very understanding. Sending positive thoughts your way. J